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Cthulhu pie

I'm not a pie maker, but I wish I was now. Cthulhu pie looks amazing!

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Jordan Klepper investigates why evangelicals think Donald Trump is the best at G-d.

This interview is really good. There’s always a cognitive dissidence where people justify why a person they like did something bad (ex/ this pastor excused Donald Trump being an adulterer) and blaming someone they don’t like for the same thing (ex/ The same pastor says without any irony that it’s Hillary Clinton’s fault that Bill cheated on her.)

That cognitive dissidence is even more disgusting once you realize that it’s not just about praising someone you like, but it’s about making it the woman’s fault that the man can’t keep it in their pants. If Hillary or Ivana were better wives, their husband’s would never have cheated. And if those other women hadn’t tempted Donald and Bill, they wouldn’t have cheated. It’s infantilizing men by saying that they don’t have to be responsible for their actions. Additionally, it demonizes women by saying that they are temptresses that men can’t resist unless they cover themselves up/hide away.

How about we teach all our children to be respectful of each other and to take responsibility for our own actions? I promise you, we’ll create a stronger society when we make everyone responsible for their own self.

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George Takei Pleads With Latino Voters Not to Elect Donald Trump in Powerful Video

First they came for the Communists
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a Communist
Then they came for the Socialists
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a Socialist
Then they came for the trade unionists
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a trade unionist
Then they came for the Jews
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a Jew
Then they came for me
And there was no one left
To speak out for me
-Martin Niemöller

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1 down, and a second one decided to get into the IRS scam game. At least they pretended it was a different fake lawyer this time! Reblocked, FTC complaint in, this was seemingly called from the same number that they want you to call back on.

I went the full force of the united states government to fall on these people. For me, it's just a nuisance. For many people, they fall for it and can lose their savings.

They deserve pretty much any penalty they get if they are actually arrested.

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"Dear" IRS robocall scam people,

Don't screw around with someone who has nothing else to do other than recover from surgery. I listened to your entire scare call, got the actual phone number that is supposed to be used to call you back at, and reported your idiot tuches' to the FTC.

Have fun explaining yourself to the government. They might not take all the scams seriously, but they do take the IRS one.

Enjoy!

Hawk

P.S. I love using the "block contact" number on my iPhone. Have fun trying to get through to me again for a while!

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Fascinating article. My spondylolisthesis can cause bad cramping, so it's always nice to read of ways to help prevent them.

A New Way to Prevent Muscle Cramps

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An amusing (to me at least) take on it all:
Donald Trump's Racist Tweet Problem-The Daily Show with Trevor Noah

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I went on a bit of a gun rant on tumblr. I get really annoyed when incomplete statistics are used to justify gun regulations. We need gun regulation - don't get me wrong - but let's do it with the complete story rather than the scare tactics.

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Sorry, but this new Apple patent could stop you from Snapchatting at concerts

This is dangerous technology. Sure, they talk about using it to block people from recording concerts. However, I can easily see it expanded to blocking people enacting their free speech rights, from recording police actions, etc. If you're from the SF Bay Area, you might recall when the BART police put cell phone blockers in the BART stations to keep protestors from organizing to protest the death of Oscar Grant by a BART police officer.

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Via Tumblr: Video: President Obama Demonstrates 5 Things That Are Harder Than Registering to Vote







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Looks like I haven’t updated with any new jewelry pictures since November. What’s that all about!? Here are things I’ve worked on in the interim.

Moss Agate NecklaceCollapse )

Onyx NecklaceCollapse )

Black Cat EarringsCollapse )

Card suit earringsCollapse )

Red Tail perching on bird houses earringsCollapse )

Peregrine Falcon perching on bird houses earringsCollapse )

Blue and white bunny earringsCollapse )

Purple and blue cloisonné necklaceCollapse )

Fluorite necklaceCollapse )

Cut crystal and glass two strand necklaceCollapse )

Glass necklaceCollapse )

Blue African Jasper necklaceCollapse )

Fluorite necklaceCollapse )

Antique glass bead necklaceCollapse )

Amethyst necklaceCollapse )

Turquoise necklaceCollapse )

Turquoise focal closeupCollapse )

Magen David moonstone necklaceCollapse )

Purple jade and quartz necklaceCollapse )

Green jade necklace with dragon on rainbow jade focalCollapse )

Catsye necklaceCollapse )

Metal Tie TackCollapse )

Metal Tie Tack 2Collapse )

Glass tie tackCollapse )

Blue Opal Tie TackCollapse )

P.S. I'm close to dealing with the business license. Next week.

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Due to a minor procedure on Friday I can't take any of my pain meds stronger than Tylenol. I didn't expect too much of an issue as things had been on a decent keel. Except today, I woke up and my back doesn't want to bend. At all. Ugh! Hopefully the heat pad I put on it will loosen it enough so I can do my stretches to be able to partially bend.

FML.

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So, my mother, in typical Jewish mom fashion, has been nagging me to get my business license to sell my jewelry. And I, in stupidity mode, told her that I'd probably do it by her birthday.

Which is this Friday.

That isn't the bad part, per se. The bad part is that I don't have a business name and haven't been able to figure out one that really calls to me. Help?

I'd create an actual poll, but it requires one to be registered with DW which not everyone is. What do people like off this list?

A) Bead aerie
B) The jewelry nest
C) Delightful designs
D) Other (list suggestion)

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Reuters news article: Exclusive: Big data breaches found at major email services - expert

FYI, Google and Yahoo! are part of this breech. I have at least one friend affected by this. It was the kick in the pants I needed to set up two factor authentication on my Yahoo and Tumblr[1] accounts. Supposedly they’ll let affected accounts know, but who knows how long that will take.

Plus changing the passwords. Just in case. Even though I've had each account with it's own unique password for years now.

[1] As it's owned by Yahoo!, so who knows if it's mixed up in this or not.

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Some raptor videos that I've had links to languishing in my inbox. Why post? Why not - they're raptors!

ScienceTake | Hawk Cam Captures the Hunt

Last Week Tonight with John Oliver - Red-Tailed Hawks

Slow Motion Eagle Owl Swooping In

Dubai World Record Eagle Flight (1:59 minutes)

Dubai World Record Eagle Flight (uncut version, the full 5 minutes flight)

Snow Covered Bald Eagle Shakes Snow off of Wings. Amazing!

Snow Covered Bald Eagle Nest and Eggs

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I got this gem in my job searching email today:


Good morning,

A recent survey by TopResume found that women who take time off to care for their families often struggle when it’s time to re-enter the job market.


Gee, thanks for assuming that because I'm a woman I'm only taking time off because I spawned and had to take care of the kids! Women take time off for a variety of reason - just like men. I took time off because I wanted to and we could afford it. Some men take time off to help with their families!

There is some value in gendered advice; I already know that my picture on LinkedIn was keeping me from getting job bites. That's why I took it down, and take advantage of a gender neutral name. However, most unsolicited "gendered" advice is really misogyny and gender norms wrapped up with a pretty bow. It hurts everyone.

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A few weeks ago I wanted to make hamantaschen as a dessert when friends were over around Purim, but realized that I a) didn't have the milk necessary for my recipe and b) didn't have time to chill the dough and make the cookies before they arrived.

I really wanted to use both my almond paste and my cherry filling that evening (Solo brand FTW!), and so started plotting what else I could do.

Of course, that meant I made up another baking recipe. I made this utterly delicious cherry almond dessert. It was supposed to be somewhat like a brownie in consistency, but it came out more like a cake bar.

I decided to try it again tonight, to make sure that the previous time wasn't a fluke. It felt weird making a chametz filled dessert the day before Pesach, but I'm secular. Unless we go and visit my parents (which we almost did), the most I'd do is make some Pesach matzoh rolls.

Anyway, it wasn't a fluke. It is still utterly delicious, and dangerous to my waistline. I'm not used to having the urge to just eat the dough rather than going through the hassle of baking it. The fact that I'm making this for other people is probably the only thing that kept me from eating most of the dough.

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I'm very fond of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. - I make a point of trying to watch it every Tuesday. But tonight's - sheesh, heavy-handed enough?

Spoilers for Spacetime, S3E15Collapse )

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My dr is starting me on a new drug, so I'm researching side effects. I came across this gem:

false beliefs that cannot be changed by facts

Since they have to mark down everything that happens as a potential side effect, just in case they're sued, I have to wonder how bat ass crazy that person was in the first place! Or whether they were just screwing around with people....

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Recommended for me by a friend:

Yes, They"re Natural

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Fascinating. I just read up on Whitepages ID, an app that helps you block suspected IRS scam calls. Don't know how well it works, but I'm going to look into it for my iPhone. The article mentions how much manual work goes into it for the developers, and they deserve major kudos for tackling this issue.

Now if only I can stop a scammer from spoofing their number to look like mine...

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After just over 2 weeks of travel to deal with family issues ( canyonwalker was gone for something like 31 out of 32 days in the past month himself), we pulled in the massive pile of mail to find some real gems in there.

My "favorite" is how a "Lisa Rogers" at a Kingdom Hall[1] hand wrote me a letter. She wants me to go and witness how her messiah's death is supposed to benefit me. Considering that canyonwalker didn't get any of this crass proselytizing, I'm figuring that they saw my stereotypical Jewish name in the phone book and decided that I needed to be saved. Yay! Let's take one of the times of the years when anti-semitism really likes to come out in force[2] and add even more to that!

It's true that I need to be saved, BTW. Saved from overbearing, religious, proselytizers who don't realize/don't care how slimy their actions are. Unfortunately, those people don't realize how disgusting they are and won't stop.

I'm going to go toss that letter and scrub myself clean.

[1]She didn't have the balls to put down her own mailing address, just to use mine.
[2]Reminders of the blood libel, how Jews are money-grubbing, they killed Jesus, etc ad nauseum.

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The Chronic Pain Triangle

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The Importance of Treating Chronic Pain

I try to avoid the opiods, as I don't like how they make me feel. However, that doesn't mean that there aren't times when they're an important part of my treatment plan. It feels like we're going from one extreme on using opiods to another.

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I feel like I should be posting a lot, since canyonwalker is out of town and I have a lot of free time, but I've fallen into a minor depression. It's completely situational and will work itself out. However, it's annoying I always have things I want to say when I'm in it, but I never can find my words. It's still hard for me to find my words, but let me try to push it out anyway.

1) I'm in this downward spiral because I've been back on my cane for 1.5 weeks now, and not 100% sure when I'm getting off of it. canyonwalker and I had an epic, would have died if we weren't experienced/hadn't had emergency supplies with us, hike over President's Day weekend when we went out with my cousins[1], and it tweaked my back some. My back didn't go out then, but just over a week later. So I've been dealing with living by myself in a three story house with a screwed up back, while I'm on a cane, and holding onto my spoons tightly. I can force myself to do the necessities, but other than that I'm on the dang couch vegging so I have enough energy to do what I need to. Let's not forget about the fact that the car that is easiest to get in/out of was in the shop for most of the first week, so it was even more draining than it should have been to get out and about. I've got awesome friends who would help out, but I've been accurately described as being "pathologically independent". *shrug* What'cha gonna do about it?

To take the pity back a step, I am getting better each day, especially as I have regular physical therapy and massage. That doesn't mean I'm not starting to get stir crazy that walking 1.5 miles is enough to make me limp for the rest of the day and contemplate just cutting the leg off. Not that it would help any. Also, my new doctor's office really went above and beyond for me. They bought the practice from my old doctor so nominally they have my records and know that I'm a chronic pain patient. But knowing it and properly reacting to it are two different things. They got me in for an emergency appointment, listened to me when I explained my history, and gave me the anti-inflammatory and breakthrough pain killers I needed without looking at me as if I wasn't worthy. I was concerned that without an advocate (spouse) who could be more "objective" that they'd look at me like a drug seeker. I'm incredibly pleased at how it went.

2) canyonwalker's father is in the hospital again, and while he's been talking with his siblings some, I'm also doing some of the coordinating since he's out of the country and I'm not. It's been on a knife-edge each day whether I might go out there before he gets home, and whether we will be leaving the day after he gets home to get out there. Spoiler alert: We still have no idea. He's sick enough to be in the hospital, but he's been sick for a while. We can't go out for every bout, or we'd be traveling every few weeks. We were already starting to plan a trip before this bout, and I'd rather go out in a few weeks planned than emergency right now if I had my druthers. However, fate doesn't usually listen to my druthers, so we're taking it day by day.

3) I'm now officially re-diagnosed with IBS. It's weird, but I had forgotten I was diagnosed with it as a child. Then again, when I was a child, doctors didn't tell you anything. The diagnosis was all "eat more roughage!", so I don't feel too bad about forgetting about it. I'd already made changes to my diet while waiting on the blood work and it was helping some. However, the diagnosis means that they can prescribe me some medication. I'm only on my first day of Linzess, and I'm already a fan. I'm pretty much a fan of anything that's not narcotics that gets rid of my pain. However, as much as it helps the pain, I swear to Elath that if it causes me to gain weight, I will be off it faster than you can blink. I'm over having my medication causing me to gain weight. I still have another 30 pounds to lose that the (&$(%*&*$ nerve medication caused me to gain.

4) In good news I had a decent first interview today with a company. It's not a management position, but it is a knowledge management position. I consider that a fair trade-off. I'll find out mid next week how that goes. I'm crossing fingers, but not toes or holding my breath.

5) In more good news, I've made three necklaces in the past week, so I wasn't that deep in depression. One was a commission, one is definitely for sale, one is maybe for sale. I need to get that dang business license, but I'm not sure what I want my business name to be. I was bouncing ideas off a friend today, but I'm not 100% sure I liked any of them enough to use them. I also need to get pictures up. Maybe this weekend. Definitely some time next week, if I remember to take the final pictures before we (probably) take our last minute trip out East.

6) In humorous news, the Nazi plumbing truck that was sitting next to the Coexist bumper sticker has been gone since I loudly talked on the phone about the Nazi symbolism as I was passing it and the trucks owner. I don't know if it's coincidental, if the owner quit the company, or they're changing the logo, but I don't care right now. Any day that I can walk (hobble) my neighborhood without having to deal with being reminded of how casual people can be in their anti-semitism is a better day in my mind.

7) Lastly, canyonwalker will be home tomorrow, and I can stop pretending that I'm Rogue and can do everything myself. Even without that, having him home makes me happy. Which makes me think of Billy Joel's You're my home, and I'm going to end this before I get more schmaltzy. Maybe I'll go listen to P!nk's True Love instead to get my head on better. *g*

[1]Which I will write up sometime soon. Probably. These past 2 weeks would have been a good time to, but while I don't regret the hike and the pain coming from it, it's still stirring up issues when I try to write it up.

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A friend of ours, Nailiah, died last Fall. There was a memorial for her tonight. I never knew her as well as I would have liked, and now people's memories are all we have left of her. It makes me sad that the details of her death are what is immortalized about her online, rather than the warm person she was.

Her family was at the memorial tonight, and it was nice to meet them. She was religious, and they did an opening and closing prayer in Arabic. Listening, the cadence of the Muslim prayers reminded me of the cadence the Cantor gave the prayers during the High Holiday days. I'm not religious; saying the Mourner's Kaddish for my brother didn't help me at all. However, after I came home, I spent a lot of time finding an audio track of the Mourner's Kaddish that reminded me of my youth. It felt right to do that for her. Perhaps the difference in doing this for her is that she actively believed, while my brother did not.

May peace be upon her.

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I hobbled on a neighborhood walk today, and walked past the house that always has the Nazi plumbing truck in front of it. Why is it a Nazi plumbing truck? Because their logo is this Nazi Eagle with Swastika, except in their case they took off the swastika and put on plumbing wrenches instead. Yeah, still creepy.

So here's where the irony comes in: while hobbling past it today, there was a car in the driveway with the Coexisit bumper sticker.

*blink* *blink* *blink* *blink*

A friend of mine called the plumbing company a few years ago to register his disapproval at their Nazi links, and they claimed that "a friend" designed it and that "they didn't know" and that's "not what it means". Well, they've known for years and have never changed the logo, so I'm certainly never going to use them. But this just makes me wonder if they're just that ignorant, or if someone means coexist with everyone but Jews (and/or Romani).

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Dear right foot,

I gave you the Tylenol. I gave you the aspirin. I gave you ice, heat, and my cane. I can't give you the narcotics yet. I know you're pissed that I made you walk 1.5 miles today, but get over it already! We both know that you just hurt to hurt and that the walking isn't bad for you. So will you just shut up and let me get my work done? The sooner you let me do that the sooner I can go to bed and give you what you want.

With much hate,

Hawk

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My foot is killing me today[1], and it needs hot water therapy. It's already scoffed at the painkillers I have short of my narcotics, which I can't take this early in the day as I also need to get work done[2]. If we weren't in the worst drought ever[3], I'd run a bath and soak my foot there while working on my computer. However, we have a hot tub at our complex. Since it always has hot water in it, one of my water saving tips is to use it anytime I want a soaker bath. So now I'm hanging out at the hot tub, on my MiFi, with my computer propped up at the edge of the pool. I even brought out a plastic bucket to prop it on, so I don't need to worry about it getting wet.

#First world pain solutions

[1]One of the issues with my back involves a random foot and/or hand occasionally hurting as if I broke them for no reason other than my body hates me. I hate these days so very much.
[2]Aka job searching and HoA board stuff that's due tomorrow.
[3]For the last 500 years, I heard at one point.


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From just after Thanksgiving to the end of December, I was doing a pretty intensive diet with canyonwalker and lost 12 pds. After we got back from holiday travels, I wanted to try and figure out a maintenance diet. It worked pretty well; I kept bouncing around in the same 2-3 pd area. I consider that a success, because maintaining weight can be just as hard as losing it!

When I saw my dr this month, she really got on me regarding my weight and triglycerides levels. She had a valid point that both needed work, and I think she understood my point that I gained all this weight from pain management medications I'd been on that screwed up my metabolism. Regardless, I needed to make the next step to lose another 10 pds. My parents were visiting, so I decided to go back on the intensive diet after they left.

They're gone, but I've still not gone back to that diet - and I feel good about my decision. You see, while they were here, my mother started eating my instant (sugar-free) oatmeal with blueberries for breakfast every morning. And I decided to try eating it again that way, and realized I'd forgotten how much I enjoy it. Add in the very real benefits to my triglycerides levels, and I decided that I'd make this change: 1 meal each day will be 1/2 cup oatmeal (pre-cooked), with 1/2 cup blueberries, 1 tsp of hemp seed (because I want to finish it off!), and a bit of other veg or fruit from the fridge - whatever was around. Other than that, I haven't deliberately changed anything. I'd been mostly staying away from the sugar, and mostly eating more meat/veg/"real food" for the past two months with minimal change in my waistline. I've also been doing as much exercise as my poor body can handle. I've got supplements I'm taking, but other than two to help me with triglycerides, I haven't added any new ones.

The results are amazing. I've lost 4 pounds this month without really trying! The oatmeal daily has gotten me from eating 3 meals plus snacks done to 2 meals plus snacks. I'm not feeling hungry, I'm not feeling cravings, I'm just doing my thing and my body is giving up weight. I feel like a walking stereotype right now - how often do "health experts" push that exact meal on us and it doesn't work? Except that my body finally got to a point where it does. The benefits might not last forever, but I don't care. I'll take whatever I can right now, to pull off the remaining 30 pounds that the medications put on me. If I can't get below that, I don't care too much. I'll be in pretty good shape, and hopefully my blood work and pain levels will reflect that.

It's so ironic, that medications designed to help us with issues cause us to gain weight. That weight gain makes a lot of the problems that need fixing worse, and it gets into a horrible feedback loop. I really hope that I've broken out of that loop, but I'm not going to hold my breath until I see that I've actually gotten to my destination.

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Things have been going better for me (pain wise) than they have in a while, but much of that is because I'm not working. When I start working again, I'm afraid I'll be going back to this:

16 Very Rude Texts Your Chronic Pain Would Send You

I am around, BTW, but spending much of my time job searching. I'm trying to not do too much on social media or I feel like I'm not taking my search seriously. Even with that, I'm actually spending a bit more time on tumblr, mostly reblogging.

At some point, I want to talk about the epic "adventure" canyonwalker and I fell into this weekend, though he's more likely to put something up about it before I do.

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I'm going through my morning job search, and I came across this gem in one of the job descriptions:

2.7 Quickly discerns the customer need and promptly prepares a quote, order, return/credit with minimal errors within 48 hours. Four mistakes per month is allowable. [Bolding done by me.]

Seriously? Seriously? Well, thank you for letting me know up front that you're a company I'm not interested in working for.

Not that I don't think you need to keep errors down, BTW. However, sometimes there's bad luck (or computer issues, or bad customers, or etc) that cause these types of errors. If you start off in the job description with such a harsh view of "number of mistakes", you don't sound like the type of company that understands the entire work ecosystem and I don't want to work there.

[Not that I was going to, anyway. It turns out that the job was not in the industry I thought it was. But still, I pity whoever takes it.]

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Compared to a lot of women, I don't get much sexual harassment. I find that my hair being short, never carrying a purse, and always being in pants tends to code me as male just enough that I get left alone more often than not.

Except for the past week, where I've now had two (2!) instances of inappropriate breast grabs.

Instance 1:
canyonwalker and I were flying to our NYE gathering and a broad-shouldered woman decided to sit in the middle seat between us on a Southwest flight. Her elbow also decided to get acquainted with my chest; it's happened before on flights and usually people are just unaware of what they're doing. I moved forward to get out of elbow range; she moved forward with me. I moved backwards; she moved backwards with me. I started to seethe and tried to figure out if I wanted to make a fuss. What finally decided me to say something was that I wouldn't put up with it from a man, so I'm not sure why I have to be "nice" and allow a woman to assault me with impunity.

I politely mention to her that she might not realize she was hitting me in the chest, suggested that there were ways we could sit to both be comfortable (1 forward, 1 back), and said that I didn't care which of those was me. If she realized what she was doing (I think she did, she was probably trying to push me into the window but I wasn't putting up with it), she didn't expect to be called on it. She blustered about how she paid for her seat, she was squashed too, and that I should "just deal with it" because "she wasn't going to stop" and that I needed to "leave her alone".

canyonwalker almost chimed in at that moment that if he (or any other male) had said that they'd be arrested upon landing. I'm glad he didn't, because I suspect it would have inflamed her more - I thought she was barking because she was embarrassed to be called out on her bad behavior and that she'd behave if I let her bluster. That turned out to be the case, though it wasn't the end of her bad behavior. She pushed passed canyonwalker and everyone else at the front of the plane to get off as quickly as possible. My only guess why is embarrassment, as we saw her waiting at baggage claim when we got down there.

I would have made more fuss to the stewardess if she hadn't gotten her bloody elbow out of my body. I'm just glad I didn't need to. I despise the fact that too many people believe that women will be nice if you invade their space, and try to push people around because of that. She KNEW it was going to be a tight squeeze - canyonwalker has large shoulders, just like she did. Maybe she should have tried a different middle seat, that didn't have a broad shouldered person in it rather than decide to try and push people into the window at bad angles.

Instance 2:
I was at my physical therapist yesterday, and a new (to me) male was there helping with the exercises after I saw the PT. One of mine involves moving a muscle just under my breasts. Rather than warning me he was going to touch me - or even trying to go to the lower part of the muscle - he puts his hand on my side breast with no warning.

I pointed out that, when he needs to do something like that, he should warn female patients BEFORE putting his hands on them. He didn't seem to get the point, though I don't think he'll do it to me again. My massage therapist and I spoke about it today, and he was appalled that the assistant did that. I might end up mentioning it to my PT tomorrow when I see him, as I feel more and more creeped out by the lack of understanding he was showing when I mentioned how inappropriate it was.

Or maybe he was embarrassed. However, better embarrassed than sued. Most assistants I've known at PT offices want to become PT's themselves, and awareness of where they are putting their hands on someone's body and appropriate warnings about what you are going to do is pretty paramount. I've been going to therapy for more years than I want to think about and I've never had a therapist need to touch my fatty breast to understand what my muscles underneath are doing.

TL;dr both men and women are perverts who need to keep their body parts off of my breasts!

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We had friends over tonight to play some Cards Against Humanity with new cards I'd just picked up. One of our friends also brought over the game "SuperFight", which we quipped was "Like ComicCon, but without the lines".

I was willing to play it, but I've been to too many ComicCons - I figured it was going to get pretty tedious, pretty fast. It actually was pretty hilarious however, and we were laughing more for this than we were for CAH. After a long argument through one of the fights, I quipped "I'm a nerd, I've argued stupider!"

As an example of hands - my first fight hand was "My significant other" "Shooting Shotguns of Shotguns" which seemed to have a pretty good chance of defeating the hordes of hippies at Burning Man in a big hamster ball with too many groceries that had rolled over all the other hands. But when I had to choose my random adjective, I got "Literal Jazz Hands" and my SO was rolled into the giant hamster ball. :(

canyonwalker managed to win the game with the Kardashian's riding Mr. Rogers with a 200 mph fast ball vs my K-Pop star who shot blinding light from their hands and a fire hose of super glue.

All I'm saying is, if you can have a game that involves the wrongness of the Kardashian's riding poor Mr. Rogers, you gotta play it!

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I've been watching with increasing frustration the calls from various politicians and law enforcement (who should know better!) that the answer to a bad guy with a gun is a good guy with a gun.

That is sometimes the answer. The majority of people who shoot - even those who know how to shoot straight and hit what they're intending - are not trained to shoot in stressful situations. You'll have a gun, you'll be able to point it, but the question is will you be level-headed enough to shoot the person threatening people without making yourself a bigger target and endangering other people.

Even if someone has a gun, there are other ways to try and take them down - that is safer for everyone else involved. A person without extensive training on how to shoot in chaotic conditions is rarely able to safely and/or helpfully waving a gun around trying to save everyone else.

The Daily Show illustrates perfectly why this run on guns and concealed weapons permits actually can make us unsafer:

Jordan Klepper: Good Guy with a Gun part 1

Jordan Klepper: Good Guy with a Gun part 2

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I haven't been posting much on this; frankly because most of what I want to say is obscene. He's demonizing an entire religion, stomping on the basic tenets of the United States as he does so, and somehow thinks/claims that he's being reasonable and not flaming the fans of Islamiphobia/Immigrantphobia that is so dangerous to the majority of people who are from here/come here in peace.

I was talking with a(nother Secular) Jewish friend today, and explaining that it was a bit weird that I wanted to have a menorah this year, but it was just something I wanted to do. His response hit the reason on the head, though; "There's a feeling of another Kristallnacht in the air, so you feel like you should connect."

It doesn't matter who the Kristallnacht is aimed at. It's despicable, and those who promote that type of hatred are both bottomfeeders and walking right into what Daesh wants. They want the West to demonize innocent Muslims. They want a division between Us and Them. That wedge gives them an in; "They hate you anyway, you should join us. We're the only ones who care about you."

Those who never learned history are doomed to repeat it; I have no desire to have a repeat of Germany in the early 20th century. I wish even more people would feel the same way.

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When I say I'm having a flare...
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I was feeling nostalgic for a menorah this year, so I did a DIY using our tea lights and candleholders. canyonwalker wanted to get in on the action, so he made one using cans from our pantry.

TeaLightCanMenorahsLight

TeaLightCanMenorahsDark

Chag sameach!

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I just had a robocall telling me that it was "my last call" from the IRS before a "major lawsuit". The robocall number then tells me to call the same number back to take care of this.

It's probably easier for them to claim some form of legality if people call them back, but all I could think of was that it made it easier for me to report it to the regulatory authorities.

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Op-Ed piece by Governor Jack Markell of Delaware, who remembers the lessons of WWII:

Why my state won't turn refugees away

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I was unhappy with how the focal for my Oregon Jasper necklace came out, so I redid it earlier this week with smaller beads around the focal and a different jump ring. I think it looks a lot better:
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A pretty good commentary on dealing with chronic pain, though it's just touching on the edges:

8 Things to Remember If You Love Someone With Chronic Pain


kitarra said that I should write a book on this while I'm in-between jobs. We'll see. It probably won't happen, but it's something I've thought about.

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On one of the chronic pain forums I lurk on, someone posted pictures of a new advert campaign that London Drug is doing:

A Chair/A Chair to a Chronic Pain Sufferer
A Baby/A Baby to a Chronic Pain Sufferer

While I dismiss the assertion that any of their over the counter medications can do much for me/most chronic pain sufferers, the idea behind them is incredibly accurate. Though I would argue that the picture they have of the torture chair looks more comfortable than most chairs I see.

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With me leaving my last job, I’m starting to get my groove back. I’ve done some beading projects over the past two years that I’ve forgotten/haven’t had a chance to post. Now that I’ve sorted all my stuff, I might also end up making more items too. I really should figure out easy; it’s the best time of year to try and sell things.

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The whole US is moving to ICD-10 billing Thursday (October 1st), and there's as much panic in the medical community as you can imagine. Aetna did some videos illustrating some of the oddest ICD10's out there (in their estimation). My favorite?


ICD-10 Cartoon: Hurt at Library (Y92.241)

What's your favorite?

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My relationship with canyonwalker is now old enough to drink.

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It's all about perspective, right?

However, I think we can all agree that the fact that there's a Settlers of Catan book now out there is just utterly wrong.

While I'm glad the game became so popular (I recall playing the original German version in the late 1990's with sticky note translations on the cards!), this still is making my eyes bleed.

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I woke up this morning to the following headline:

Supreme Court rules gay couples nationwide have a right to marry

I'm doing a happy dance over here. It's been a long time coming, and I'm proud of the justices that ruled for inclusiveness rather than bigotry.

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I'm still not sure how I feel about Marvel's Secret Wars [there's a good chance I'm using it as a dropping off point], but even the whole thing with "Battleworld" is better than the crap DC is selling with DC You.

For Elath's sake, DC - learn from Marvel's mistake in the '90s and drop Bob Harras' tuchus to the curb!

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