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At least, don't tell me it's probably benign in a letter and then ask me to come back in 6 months "to confirm this area has not changed".

Personally, I'm annoyed because this is a horrible way to tell someone that their mammogram has something to be worried about. I was in the office where the radiologist interpreted it. They could have come and talked with me so I could ask questions about probabilities. Instead I get a stupid form letter that's supposed to be reassuring. My mother had kidney cancer. I am quite aware that a 6 month cycle means that there's something they are concerned about.

Fuck them. I have an appointment with my primary care tomorrow night about my most recent back herniation, and I'll make him figure out for me if I should really bother going back in 6 months.

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Things I hate:
1) My back, my knees, my shoulders, my big toes... basically every part of my body that can potentially throw out.
2) Narcotics. I do not enjoy being high as a kite, even if it does take away the pain.

Things I appreciate:
1) canyonwalker
2) My boss. I highly doubt she will actually be able to take care of everything tomorrow with me unexpectedly out - without having to call me - but I appreciate that her first instinct was to try.
3) Doctor's who know me, make sure I have prescriptions on hand "just in case", and then actually respond to emergency calls on a weekend.

Fuck you, back, and the horse that you wouldn't be able to rid in on.

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I've never been more grateful to suffer from chronic pain. I've gotten pretty bad food poisoning from some bad egg salad sandwiches[1], and the over the counter stuff isn't doing much for the muscle pain.

"Thankfully", I'm used to taking scalding bathes (110? Maybe even 115?) for 10 minutes or so to help relax the muscles. It helps, barely.

This better be better in the morning - and gone by Friday night when I need to fly to the East Coast.

Blargh.

[1]Cliched, I know.

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We've been doing a lot of interviews recently, and I've started and let go a few people. One of the main issues I'm having is trying to figure out computer literacy. To wit, it's not just "Can you use Outlook?", but "Can you use multiple systems such as LIMs, Salesforce, Outlook, Excel, Word, and File Share Servers competently enough that I don't need to explain basics such as 'double-click'?"

At my last place of employment it was fairly easy - I'd make them figure out some citations and explain some search logic and figure out quickly. Here it's much harder - many of these are intrinsic skills you'd expect 30+ year olds to have figured out and it's a bit insulting to ask if they know how to.

That being said, I need to find out a way to do it. I'm getting sick and tired of hiring people that I have to practically start at ground zero with.

Any suggestions? I'm expecting crickets as response, but anything would be nice.

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Great News: I went rollerblading for the first time in 6-8 months. It was completely exhilarating and relaxing and I had no problems. It was as if I hadn't ever stopped doing it because of all the back et al problems. I've missed it so much.

Dangerous News: Which is great, because I was so pissed off by a situation at work that I took out my helmet and arm guards to put on, then went out rollerblading without them and never even realized. I got home, started to take off my skates, and noticed that they were still lying in the foyer. D'oh! That would have been a really bad spill if I'd had any problems.

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Just how hot was it at my office today in the shade? Hot enough to explode an unopened Coke Zero can. Luckily all the liquid flowed into the cup holders for an easy cleanup!

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Have you ever been so tired, that you just start doing things on auto pilot? I did that tonight with my baking. I wanted to make fig newton bars, but I pulled and started mixing up my oatmeal fruit cookie bars instead. I'm using the fig jam, and they'll be tasty... but it certainly wasn't what I was planning to do.

Then again, my office is just delighted that someone bakes. I definitely won't get any complaints.

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Is it just me, or does the cover to #2 make Loki look like a young John Travolta?

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I was in a bit of a groove over the past few months with making new jewelry pieces:

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Happy 2014, everyone! May it be even better than the last.

canyonwalker and I are sitting at Midway Airport, waiting for our 4:45. At the moment it's delayed to 6. Looking out the window, I'm not so sure we're getting out of here anytime soon...

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It's that time of year when I recall how few hours I have until I'm leaving for Chicago New Year's... I've got the tangerine pound cake in the oven, honey cake will be next, and - if I feel up to it tomorrow - I'll make lemon poppyseed poundcake. I might also make some toffee chip cookies.

As odd as it is sometimes, baking is a relaxing activity for me. Too bad I don't have a waistline that's not hurt by so much baking; nor do I usually have the time to do much. *sigh*

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Today's the birthday of my favorite spouse, canyonwalker. Happy Birthday, love!

It's also the birthday of my favorite twin of his from another mother, prince_eric. Have a wonderful birthday as well!

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I was looking for fall office decorations last night at the CVS, and I found some of their Christmas gel clings. I hate to break it to you, CVS, but that doesn't look like a bulb in the string of lights, but something very much not work safe...

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I just finished putting up the last pictures from today. As always, if the tag says Unknown, help would be greatly appreciated.

NYCC was a lot of fun - and a lot of line waiting. It's not as bad as SDCC, but it's getting close. I'm torn about coming next year, but I suspect I'll end up doing it.

Hightlights:
- Getting to meet Jim Cheung, buy some artwork, and fangirl at him.
- Going to both the Women in Marvel and the Minorities in Fandom panels and finding the rooms packed. I remember when they first started the Women in Marvel panels and the room was maybe half-full. It's great to see them expand
- X-men panel; frankly, any panel with Peter David is worth going to
- Lots of great cosplay.

Disappointments:
- Arizona's outdated, stereotyped, sexist, tea ad. For what it's worth, I never saw it again after the first day. Every panel I was at in that room seemed horrified by it.
- Marvel's Digital panel. Guys, how are you supposed to convince me to get into your digital comics if you can't even manage to figure out how to use Powerpoint?

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Saturday's pictures are now up. I found some awesome pictures today - 2 (TWO!!!) Jack Knights, a bubble-head Mysterio, Ewoks, Khaaannnn!!!... today was a good costume viewing day.

If the tag says Unknown, help would be greatly appreciated.

And now off to sleep. I need to sleep more.

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And Friday's are now up! I found some interesting costumes, but I'm not as happy with my picture taking today.

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I was enjoying the panels, except for the ones in Room 1E - where Arizona Iced Tea was sponsoring it. They decided the 80's hadn't been missed and designed a "I heart Big Cans" promo that left absolutely no doubt as to what type of "cans" they were talking about. Good going, Arizona! Let's insult all the men by saying they only think with their penis, and all the women by making them nothing more than objects to be desired and have drinks poured over their already tight shirts.

Congratulations - you've convinced me that I no longer want to drink Arizona tea. Snapple's the place for me!

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Pictures from today are up! I'm surprised with as many as I took today. Then again, tomorrow and Saturday I'm mostly planning to be sitting in panels so we'll see how that goes.

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The premiere tonight of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. was a pretty awesome anniversary gift. I'm sure it was planned just for us. *g*

And Lola! I should have seen that coming, but it didn't even register until the end.

Such a fun show.

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Despite both of our works trying to destroy our 19th[1]/17th[2]/7th[3] anniversary trip, canyonwalker and I went to Loch Leven Lakes in Tahoe National Forest on Sunday. Middle Loch Leven is definitely one of my happy places. And having canyonwalker there just made it better.

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[1]19th anniversary of our first date
[2]17th anniversary of moving across the country together
[3]7th anniversary of when we got married


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Via ojuang:
Raptor vs Mailman

I'm rooting for the birds... of course!

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During my pelvic ultrasound today, the nurse was prepping a long cylindrical object. She put a condom with gel on top of it, turns to me and asks "Have you ever had one of these before?"

I feel that my return comment, "I am married", was not as well understood as one would hope.

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Dear LinkedIn,

Thank you for suggesting that I might want to connect with the ex-coworker who physically threatened me. I know you have a "no" button for the connection page. Do you have a "never, not even if I would never be able to earn money again" button that I can click instead?

No love,

Hawk

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Bye, bye DOMA!
Bye, bye Prop 8!

The rulings might not have been as far reaching as I feel they should be, but they ate a very good start.

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So you know how canyonwalker threw out his back coughing from a cold/bronchitis type thing? Well, that virus is the gift that keeps on giving! Now I've got it. Because of all the medications I'm on for my shoulder (which is finally in MUCH BETTER SHAPE, thank you very much), I didn't notice I had the cold/bronchitis until a few days into it when I went on a scheduled decrease of my medications. That's Gift Number 1.

Gift Number 2? Not only did my loving spouse give me his cold/bronchitis, I got laryngitis from it. Considering a lot of my job is talking on the phone.... Argh! I'm currently sitting in our closed up bathroom, with the shower running as hot as it goes, creating a very inefficient humidifier for my throat. The good news is that it's working. The bad news is that I'm still going to go to work, but just not talk, today. I don't get this kind of humidity in my office.

[BTW, why do I keep saying possible bronchitis? The phlegm has been pretty sweet, and that is frequently an indicator of the illness having reached the lungs. Fun!]

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I both liked and disliked the movie, but on the whole I'd fall on the side of liked. Iron Man has never been a favorite of mine outside of a team, but Tony Stark can be fun when done right. RDJ has been a consistently wonderful Tony Stark, but he seemed a bit off in this one. I can't explain it other than timing felt off to me. That being said,

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And on that note, I need to go to bed. What are your thoughts?

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I've spent the last two weeks being in more pain, meeting yet another doctor, and getting put on yet another drug regimen[1]. It's all been worth it, though, as today is the first day in seven bloody months that I've had no pain and no side effects from meds! I know it's a temporary reprieve, as I shouldn't stay on these meds forever if I can help it, but I don't care. Being pain free feels awesome and I'm going to revel in it.

*does the dance of joy*


[1]This is despite the new doctor shrugging his shoulders and having no real clue as to what's happening with me. As usual. *sigh*

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In case I missed someone, thanks for all the help that was offered. At the moment, I'm just going without a ring until my pain issues are mostly gone. Actually, I'm going without all jewelry right now because I'm not trusting even a little bit of metal against my skin at the moment, even if it's something not as tight as a ring.

On the whole, each day is getting better and better which is wonderful, as this problem's been bothering me since September. Last night was a random throwback, where I wanted to rip my arm off and beat everyone else with it. Thankfully, it's better this morning and I don't have to deal with that type of pain level as often anymore.

Maybe the shoulder was just reminding me of how it had been, as I'm off to see the doctor today. If the doctor disbelieves the concept of how I'm allergic to metal? I'm firing him. I'm done with having doctors not believe me when I've either 1) have proof from other doctors that this is how my body works and/or 2) I've done a lot of testing on myself and know that there is at least a correlation between x & y.

Hopefully it will go well. We'll see.

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My Post Apocalyptic Scooby Gang picture from SDCC 2011 has been passed around the web so many times, it needs people to start taking numbers.

That being said, it just got linked to Reddit so now I'm getting a shit-ton of new traffic on my flickr. Which isn't a bad thing, except for two reasons:
1) I made a mistake of looking at the comments on reddit. Wow, almost everyone wants to do Velma. And they're crude about it. Of course making Velma (and Daphne) look doable is the whole point of a cosplay like this. How did I ever think otherwise!??!

2) I loathe how websites HOST someone else's picture rather than just link to it or use img src HTML to show it. I'd like all that traffic to come back to me, so I can see how people are enjoying my pictures, rather than to someone else's tumblr/reddit/pintrest page so I don't know where my pictures are at.

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As many of you know, I've been having massive issues with my right shoulder/arm/neck area since September. It's been getting better with good PT, but not anywhere near as quickly as I'd like. Recently, some of the symptoms started to move to my left hand.

This, as odd as it might sound, was actually a good thing. It made me think about when we discovered I was allergic to the (minute) levels of nickel that were in my first wedding ring. I took off the ring we custom made to have palladium instead, and discovered that a bunch of my pain levels went away. I put the ring back on for a few hours today, it started to come back.

Turns out that there's now more evidence that if you have a nickel allergy you're also likely to be allergic to palladium. If I get my wedding ring recoated with rhodium every 3-5 years[1], I could keep wearing it. However, that means that 1) We're paying a cost for me to keep wearing a ring and 2) it's not always obvious that the pain is coming from my body's reaction to the ring, so it'll take time for us to figure out that's where it's coming from.

We've jointly decided that I just won't wear a wedding ring (or, honestly, probably any rings) anymore, but it feels like a kick to the stomach. I don't want to deal with the problems the ring causes, but I don't want to not have a way to tell people that I'm taken. It's not logical, but that's how I'm feeling at the moment. Any suggestions on what I can do? I've thought about wearing it around my neck on a chain, but eventually the rhodium will probably wear off other parts of the ring and start making me sick again.

I'm delighted that we might have figured out a way to quickly reduce all the pain I'm having. But I wish it was something else that was causing it.

[1]And I'm guessing it'll be every 3 years, as the ring is only 3 years old.

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[dreamwidth.org profile] kate_nepveu is moderating the following panel and asks:

Online Fandom Migration
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Sat 4:00 PM

As the center of fanfiction and other online creative fannish activity moved from individual websites to LiveJournal to AO3 to Tumblr, what changed about fannish culture? What if you don't like the new platform? Who is still hanging out on the old ones and why? And where is it going next?

Kate Nepveu (mod), Arthur D. Hlavaty, Joshua Kronengold, Ben Yalow

But I am not a fanfic writer, nor do I use Twitter much or Tumblr at all, and I suspect that my co-panelists are largely the same.

Since I hate panels that are about something completely different than their descriptions, talk to me! I hope to be able to recruit people at-con, but if not, at least I can bring in second-hand comments and ask for reactions, parallels, etc.?


It sounds like a fun panel. If anyone can help her out, here's the exact post.

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It's not rain on your wedding day. It is having the Cold Stone Creamery one of the few places open on a day when most of this area has been shut down.

Guess what I'm about to go and have for dinner?

I've also just used a hair dryer on myself for the first time in about 20 years so I wouldn't go outside with wet hair. I didn't feel like having it freeze to my skull.

Feh. Feh, I say.

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So they're calling this the "Snowquester". *rolls eyes* At least it's marginally better than things like "Snowmaggedon!"

The newest plus side for this extended trip is:
1) I now have 5 days of gym access. It doesn't have the pound weights I need (my PT wants me to go light, light, light), but I've got a treadmill and stepper which is really nice.
2) I did some shopping last night as I didn't bring warm enough clothes for snow (and I brought the pair of jeans that don't really fit, not the ones that fit) and got some warm clothes for fairly cheap. Yay for clearance racks and 15% off!
3) Hugh Chavez died. I know the poor of Venezuela loved him, but he really wasn't good for the country as a whole. I hope that they choose someone who helps them come into the mainstream of world politics, rather than staying on the fringes.

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We've been in VA for canyonwalker's grandmother's funeral. It's all been going pretty well (I'm the favorite aunt of many of the kids, surprisingly enough!), except for the fact that the VA/DC/MD area is shutting down for a snow storm. In preparation, my flight tomorrow was cancelled. *growl* So now I'm stuck out here until Sunday. It's not all bad; we get to help canyonwalker's family a bit more, see my parents a bit, and possibly see some school friends of mine and visit the mall in DC. All in all, though, I'd rather be home and not having to burn extra days of vacation.

Feh. I went to Yosemite in December. That blizzard was supposed to be my snow for two years!

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We're teaching our 8 year old nephew the different ways to destroy the undead. I despair of his zombie plan, though. He keeps wanting to use a code to shut off their brain. I keep telling him it won't work.

And guns on skeletons aren't really a good idea, either.

I told his father that they needed to play more D&D. I'm pretty sure that'll never happen. *grin*

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canyonwalker and I just spent 3 days in the backcountry at Anza Borrego Desert State Park. I'm always amused at the difficulty warnings that rangers give for the backcountry, even though I know why they do it. People are stupid[1], and they really don't want to be out there having to drag injured or dead bodies back.

Even more amusing: want to know how to quickly tell that a trail has become more difficult? Look around and see how many cars you see parked. First water crossing? Lots of sedans. First time the trail starts to get off-kilter? You see more cute Utes parked at the side. First major hill with lots places to get off-camber? You get all the high-clearance SUVs without actual 4wheel drive parked. You even see a lot of vehicles that have 4wheel drive parked, because the drivers don't know their limits.

That's okay - it leaves the backcountry emptier for us, which is just the way I like it.

Tomorrow? Off to Death Valley!

[1]Such as the driver who parked in the middle of the fucking trail in the Carrizo Badlands. Moron. We should have let Gambit run over his car.

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At PT last night, I met a 25 yo woman who was struggling not to cry as they were putting her on the estim and ice packs. I started some small talk with her - telling her about my coping mechanism of throwing stuffed animals against the wall when the pain gets that bad. And then she started asking me how long I'd been dealing with my pain, how doctors treated me, how I managed day by day - all of those questions that people with chronic pain want to know the answer to, but don't always know who they can ask.

I spent 20 minutes talking with her, explaining my journey (and telling her how lucky she was that someone was willing to recognize her pain as real when she was that young. Most of us are never that "lucky"). I kept reminding her that she's not alone, and having people she can talk with who understand when it gets that bad really helps.

It helped make me feel better, as well. If I'd had the choice, I would never have learned all of this firsthand. However, at least everything I've learned can maybe help someone else have less of a bad journey.

She doesn't have anyone in her life who understands chronic pain. Her family tries, but does a horrible job from what she says. They always ask the dreaded "How are you doing?" question and expect her to have a good answer. *shudder* I impulsively gave her my number. It might end up being a mistake, but for the moment I feel good about it.

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Even though I haven't finished A Memory of Light[1], I'm still going to the signing that Sanderson and Harriet are doing in SF today. I'm sure there will be spoilers galore, but I'll survive somehow.

If others want to meet up, email or call me.

[1]I've been savoring it! Or I've been pretty busy. Take your pick.

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Orange Honey Pound Cake is in the oven. I hope it tastes as good as I think it'll be. I might have put too much baking soda in to compensate for the acidity of the honey. If that happened, I think it'll take some of the flavor out of the orange as well.

We shall see.

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Tonight I started the prologue on the last Robert Jordan book, A Memory of Light. I didn't expect the overwhelming sense of sadness and reverence that overcame me. Sadness because something that has brought so many friends and family to my life is (almost) over. Reverence because I've been waiting since 1991 to read that final scene that Jordan always had in his head. My impulse is to rush through the reading, but I want to savor it. After this, there's no more. As important as knowing that ending is to me, the journey has become just as important.

What has it felt like for you?

[BTW, this is a spoiler free post. You don't want to find out what I'll do to you if you put spoilers here.]

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canyonwalker & I are doing some spring cleaning this weekend. While clearing out shelves I haven't touched in a while I discovered a L&O/X-men crossover I had started on around 2000 or so. Elath, it's ancient. It deserves to be recycled, too. Even if I wanted to continue it, it's been way too long since I've seen the L&O with Briscoe & Logan to make it any good.

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I am trying to figure out tumblr.

Elath, I'm old.

Also, it's a horrible interface.

I'm still old, though.

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I just spent way more than I was intending on beads & findings at the gem faire. I mostly got good deals, but even so I spent close to $500 for everything. culfinriel, I did get some good findings to go with that blue tigerseye I bought at that store in Chicago with you.

I need to stop just buying and start selling. That's my resolution for this year. I should just get some stuff together and up on Etsy, or start making a point of reminding people that I do commissions. Either way, I'll have the fun of making the jewelry, pictures of my work, and then I'll manage to get some money back for all my investment. I doubt it'll be enough to suffice me for a career, but it is something to consider if/when I change jobs next.

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Cards against Humanity is a fun game that's been getting traction in a bunch of my different social groups. I was introduced to it at a party about 6 months ago, and I keep meaning to order a copy for myself.

While cleaning off my desktop this week, I found a copy of it on my desktop from 2011! I vaguely recall now that they had put copies up on the web and ojuang or puppybrother had given me a link to it. I could have printed it out and played it years ago! *sigh*

At this point, I might as well just order the pre-made game. Better card stock and I won't have to print out about 50 pages and cut it all up.

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Many raptors love snow. This one hates it. However, I do love Yosemite in winter. Every so often we go around Christmas as A) it's gorgeous and B) it's not like we celebrate. When we went this weekend, there was just a bit of snow happening...

Pictures of a Yosemite Winter Wonderland. At least, the ones that amuse me the most.Collapse )

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I've been working on some projects recently, most of which I can't reveal yet as they're gifts. I can reveal the necklace/earring combo I made with the pendant and bracelet I bought last weekend in Chinatown. I'm pretty pleased with how the two stranded necklace turned out.

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Today is the natal day of my best friend & spouse, canyonwalker. Happy birthday!

It's also the natal day of his twin brother from another mother, prince_eric. Happy birthday, Eric!

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My department is doing a gift exchange tomorrow, and the person I have is as big a geek as I am. So I decided to try and make the gift look like the iconic Leia. Unfortunately, I think she got a bit of Blagojavich hair in the process.

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Here's some pictures of jewelry I've had since March or so.

Large Fluorite NecklaceCollapse )

Barrel Fluorite Necklace with PendantCollapse )

Thunderbird and Blue Quartz NecklaceCollapse )

Ruby zolite & garnet necklace/bracelet setCollapse )

Jasper NecklaceCollapse )

Pink Quartz NecklaceCollapse )

Playing Card EarringsCollapse )

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When you do physical therapy, you should try to balance what you're doing on both sides of the body. That way you make sure one side doesn't get too out of balance with the other.

One of the exercises I'm doing for my pinched shoulder involves lying on my side and lifting a weight across my body. Oddly, it's pretty easy to do on the side that has the pinched nerve. It's not so easy on the side where I had rotator cuff surgery back in 2009. When I lift the weight across my body there's a moment where I can actively feel nothingness, where bone had been removed. Then, a moment later, I feel everything catch properly into place and it's easy to lift again. It's the freakiest feeling and I wish it wouldn't happen.

And yet, I will not stop doing the exercise. That's despite the fact I'm pretty sure that building up that muscle isn't going to make any difference in how the exercise feels to me.

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You know, Obama, comedians agree, competency is our greatest enemy.
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"Okay, this completely violates Growing Man continuity."
"What do we do?"
"We're fanboys, aren't we? So we collect them all."
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"You provide the boobs, I provide the witty sayings."
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"They were slightly to the right of Atilla the Hun."
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"Who's there--?!"
"uhm... Avon callin'... how 'bout some make-up t'cover up that black eye?"
"WHAT black eye?"
"The one y'gonna have for sure if you don' give up right now, boy."
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Could somebody please balefire Robert Jordan? I'd like to get my life back.
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"Oh, won't you be my Black Hawk of Shienar?"
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"You like being that errant blip on the radar screen of humanity."
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"I know what you need. You need a blow job."
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"After a certain point, more bombs will only make the rubble bounce."
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"A PLASMA RIFLE 'gainst a BOYSENBERRY PIE? Can you find the crazed psychopath in this picture?"
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"LOVE makes you want to stab people? That isn't love. That's brain damage. Though I do understand your confusion between the two, some days..."
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Breasts are not a steering wheel.
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I have come here to chew bubble gum and kick ass. And I'm all out of bubble gum.
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"...trust me, no one ever, ever, sees a predatory canabalistic bunny slipper closing in until its too late."
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"Put down the burrito."
"I'm going to kill you, man."
"Only if I eat it."
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If you want me to get off of you, you should stop chewing on me.
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Don't look at me, I have a chicken on my head.
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Do you know how bad a storyline is if you're hoping it's a clone?
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"And now I'm a God!"
"And now you're a coat rack."
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"You may not wear Cthulhu."
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"I'm the DA. I can arrest anyone."
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"We have not rutted debacherously in a fortnight for fear of our lives! We'll go."
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If you pave a deer, the terrorists have won.
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"I love you. I'd be upset if you were deleted."
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Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons, for you are crunchy and good with ketchup.
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"It's annoying that we have to fight elections for our cause. The inconvience - having to get a majority."
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"You should never neglect to spank a wayward elf."
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"Don't look like much up close. Kind of... soft and squishing looking."
"There are people who would argue those are two of my best characteristics."
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"...And the NUMBER ONE reason why Emplate is a loser is... he kidnaps every member of Generation X... plans to chow down on our mutant powers... hangs yours truly upside down, yet somehow... He's STILL not as OBNOXIOUS as his younger sister, M!"
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The ephemerals have no help to give. Look at them!
They are deedless and cripple,
Strengthless as dreams.
All mortal kind is bound with a chain; All their eyes are darkened...
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Familiarity breeds children.
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The _exalted_ guardian of the fledgling few forging the fires of fan fiction.
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"Get naked. Then we'll talk."
"Some people call that sexual harrassment. You call that foreplay."
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"I knew that if I fucked you long enough, you'd eventually want it."
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Nothing can be as racy as a furry on speed.
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"Where'd you get dat extra bio-energy?"
"I stored it. Where'd you hide the bo-staff?"
"DON'T ask if y'don't want to know."
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"Are you a geek? You look like a geek."
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I've never tried glass blowing.
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Why try to govern a country when you can become a saint?
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The only beginning is birth and the only end is death - if you can't count on that, what can you count on?
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"We're baaack! Two bad, beautiful babes with *really* *big* *guns*!"
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Reality is the only obstacle to happiness.
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He's a heroin addict with standards, damnit!
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"I'm not interested in sex right now."
"You're just saying that to get me horny."
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"But I do this to burritos!"
"You do not hump burritos."
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When all else fails, read the instructions.
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I'd insult you, but you're not bright enough to notice.
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"I could've been a lawyer but I just had too much heart."
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"The world read my lips... but my lips were crossed!"
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The Jeopardy category is: "What if Charles Manson played with dolls?"
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"We wouldn't have to be so mean if the world wasn't so stupid."
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Do not meddle in the affairs of models, for they are subtle and look better than you do.
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Xena looked longingly over Gabrielle's naked body. Muscular abs, chunky arms, small but firm breasts: these things made her tingle with desire.
Too bad Gabrielle was dead.
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Oh my god, there's so much breast.
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"Are you turned on now? How about now? Now?
"What is this, a Verizon commercial?"
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"They're Orcs. They're made to die."
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"What's with him?" "Intoxicated."
"And the guy with the big nose?"
"Hung over."
"Ah, you party in shifts. Very efficient."
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Peace through superior firepower.
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"I am Fire! And LIFE INCARNATE! Now and Forever -- I AM PHOENIX!"
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Through his pain, Logan remembers a myth of old.. of a beautiful bird that was so worshipped, it would rise reborn from death's ashes. But though he desperately wants to believe otherwise, he knows that his beloved Jean... is no Phoenix...
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Piglet isn't an Ajah. Piglet isn't a color. It's a *food*.
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"You're very garlicly. It's kind of sweet. It's like kissing a good pizza."
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"You know, they say pizza will get you through times without sex better than sex will get you through times without pizza!"
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It's hard to cut a knife with a plastic bagel.
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War is politics by other means.
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Do you know how hard it is to have a chicken on my large psychic head?
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PUBS? Where bad men DRINK and WOMEN get... get... PREGNANT?
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"Puppy is a better lover than you. Puppy knows how to treat a man."
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Men... can't live with 'em, but you can give them to the Reds!
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To reduce arms, a particular party must first build more in order to have negotiating advantage.
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That wasn't very romantic. But I'm feeling horny anyway."
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"...Crazy Latin dancing solo down in Harold Square. Oh, Havana, I've been searching for you everywhere. And though I'll never be there, I know what I would see there - I can always find my Cuban skies in Rosalinda's eyes..."
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"We'll stay, but if there's not some serious rutting going on soon, someone's in trouble."
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"Lemme get this straight... I MESS with the head o' the world's greatest telepath... I USE and ABUSE a junior X-man... I massage Braddocks' innards with my CLAWS... an' STILL you dweebs think I'm some kinda reclamation project. Heh. Who's in DENIAL, McCoy?"
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"You're not a salad. You're a meat dish."
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"There's only one reason good Christian girls go to Planned Parenthood."
"To plant pipe bombs?"
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"We're talking about scrabble, not domestic abuse."
"Same thing."
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"She's Cute! She's Deadly! She's a Hologram!"
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"Your back attracts sheep like moths to a flame."
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"...I'm not familiar with the fact that intelligence and skinhead beliefs go hand in hand. The fact that these kids are neo-Nazis and ignorant, that's pretty much consistent for me."
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"It's the frickin' dragon. I'm going back to sleep."
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Excuse me, what does God need with a starship?
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"She cuts you hard, she cuts you deep, She's got so much skill She's so fascinating that you're still there waiting, When she comes back for the kill"
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You deserve no sympathy,
I will give you no pity,
And it serves you right.
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"You profaned a teddy bear."
"I did not. I just made him anatomically correct."
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"He's not fair. He fights with trees."
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"How much do you spend on an everyday bottle of urine?"
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"No biting."
"No gumming, either."
"You take all the fun out of being a vampire!"
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Verbing weirds language."
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"Was I drunk? Sometimes I'm a virgin when I'm drunk."
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"The deconstructionists tell us that nothing is real, but I've discovered one or two truisms about life. The first is, when attacked by a Volvo, take it seriously."
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"Second truism: Volvo first impressions are generally correct."
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You shot me. I'm the God of War! Nobody shoots the God of War!!
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"Hey, loser... don't mess with the X-MEN. *Even* the little ones."
"'Specially the little ones."
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